I’ve spent all month trying to muster the courage to share this.
This is me at a really low point and something I’m a little proud of - I had caught myself right before a panic attack.
I noticed my triggers, I used my tools (lavender oil, my Daddy’s sweet tea, weighted blanket), I told my mom - a way of owning what I was feeling. And then I took a step back using my tools to breathe & ground myself before going to bed.
I focused in on @lauren_daigle ‘s album & in the corner of my mind I started taking pictures with my phone. I wanted to have proof.
Proof how music still heals me.
Proof that I can pull myself back from the scariest part of my PTSD - panic attacks.
Proof for others to know there is light out there. They are not alone. That darkness haunts me too.
You are not alone; I am not alone.
And hopefully by being brave tonight I’m less ashamed.
Mental health is a normal part of daily life & is vitally important for everyone’s overall well-being.
I’m not ashamed, I’m terrified of people’s judgement.
But this is me, the real me, and there is nothing wrong with me.
So if you feel that darkness - I see you and you matter.